Baby Brown.....

It is with such a sad and heavy heart that I am updating our family blog. Today our family went to a regular appointment to see if Baby Brown was a boy or girl. At that time the doctor was deliverying another baby so we had to wait. Instead of sending me home ( this is a one doctor practice) one of the nurses decided that she would attempt to find the gender out then verify it with Dr. Roque. We all went back into the room and for about 10 minutes she tried to get a good picture of the baby but I noticed she was having a hard time. I asked if their was a heart beat and without any worry she said yes that it was just an old machine and the doctor would have to do it. With that the doctor came in and within 2 minutes told us that this "wasen't a normal baby" that there was NO amniotic fluid and one of the kidneys was enlarged. Immediatly she made an appointment for us to go downtown Charlotte to a high risk doctor. We took Grant home and dropped him off with our neighbors who were so kind to take him on such short notice. Keep in mind this whole time Jon and I were preparing for a birth defect or maybe a handicap child at worst case. After a drive that seemed to last forever we arrived at the high risk doctor. That is when he informed us that our baby was a boy and had a strong heartbeat and was proper size for his gestational age, but indeed there was NO amniotic fluid and they could only find one kidney. On top of that the only kidney he has, has Renal Cysts on it. As we waited for our options we had none. I can carry the baby to term or as far as my body will let me and deleiver, but without the amniotic fluid the babies lungs can not mature. Or I can be induced this week. We asked if there was anyway to put fluid in or give me steroid shot to mature the lungs but at 20 weeks there just isn't much they can do. My mom is flying in tommrow to be with us and help us through this horrible time. I am having such a hard time with this because our baby still moves and kicks in me even as I type this. It is so sureal, I had a great pregnancy with Grant this shouldn't be happening. I can sleep tonight because I keep waking up thinking this is a terrible dream then having to realize that it isn't. Sorry for such a depressing post and I know my spelling is shitty but I just thought I would let everyone read this instead of trying to tell everyone individually. I will keep everyone updated on what is going on when I can. Thanks for all the support and please send prayers to our family.

Time for an update

This week A LOT has happened!!!! First of all Jon's brother Tim and his girlfriend Stephanie came down to visit!!! Grant had a blast with as he calls them Rock and Phee. Unfortunately for them their weeks vacation fell right when North Carolina was getting a snow storm!!! So when they first got here it rained and rained, then that rain turned to heavy snow, we got around 5 inches!!! After a few snow days Jon and I went back to work. Well unfortunately I only worked for two days last week before my boss decided to tell me that he wanted to switch my hours from 7:30 am- 12:00pm to 2:30pm-6:30pm. On top of that I would be in Grants room during that time, let's just say that Grant isn't the best for me when I am in the room!!!! My boss tried to offer me these hours a while back and I told him that it was just impossible for me to work those hours. It would interfere with Grant's whole schedule and I wouldn't get home until 7:30, so it would be hurry up feed Grant and put him to sleep. So I decided not to take the hours and now Grant and I are spending more quality time together. Which I am really excited to do before the new baby gets here!!!

Our goals before Baby Brown gets here in August are: to get Grant potty trained and to switch him into a big boy bed!!!! I know that once the baby is here that he might regress in the potty training area but I'm not worried about that to much. On the pregnancy front I am 17 weeks and I don't feel a bit pregnant. Your second child is so different than your first!! I don't have the time to focus really on this pregnancy because of a certain someone running around all the time!!! I feel bad for this but everyone is assuring me that it is normal to feel like this!!! I don't even think I have picked up a pregnancy book at all yet!!! Anyways my doctor is being mean and making me wait until I am 22 or 24 weeks to find the sex out!!!! I found out at 18 weeks with Grant so I am getting very impatient!!! So I think that around the third week in April is when I will find out so we will keep you posted......